…but doesn’t always want to accept it. 
This week has been the hardest week I have had as a mother since becoming one 21 months ago. My son has been recieving therapy for developmental “issues” for about 6 months now. We have been working on communication and motor skills, etc. Well this week the therapist brought a specialist with her basically to introduce me to the very STRONG possibility that my son has autism. This was something that I had felt for a long time but DID NOT want to believe because well who wants to believe that their son has a disorder that could cause him to struggle for the rest of his life. Its not an easy pill to swallow and I can’t say that I have fully swallowed it especially since we won’t officially know if he has a diagnosis until August but the more I learn about the characteristics of autism the more difficult it becomes to deny. I love my son very much and can’t stand the thought of him suffering but I know that denying the reality will only make it worse so I have begun the process of accepting. I struggled with writing this post because I don’t generally share this type of stuff on my blog but I really believe that support and prayer are going to be so important as Brian and I try and figure out exactly what is in store for us. So I decided to write it with the intention of asking y’all to remember us in your prayers.
There is a huge community of support on-line and in the real world.
Very best wishes
You know how much my heart breaks for you and wants to say it is not true! But of course you have always known this was true. Bob and I will do whatever we can to support you in this journey! We love you, Brian and Jonas so much. Disney here we come!
Kathleen,
My heart is so heavy for you right now. I can’t imagine how you are feeling and how hard this week has been for you. I will be praying for you and your family.
I love you guys! Not that this helps right now, but God is not surprised by this at all. And, He promises us that He will work everything together for good. Even though we may not know what that means right now, you can still trust Him. And He loves Jonas waaaaaaaaaaay more than anybody else (even though I bet that’s hard for a Mom to comprehend…it’s even hard for an Aunt to comprehend). We will all pray and trust that God will continue working in Jonas’ life. I’m praying for you guys. Let me know if there is anything I can do!
first of all, i LOVE that picture. that IS jonas…curious and focused.
i’m proud of you for posting this…
i know it felt weird to do, but it’s good that you did.
i hope you know i’m ALWAYS here when you (or that precious little boy)
need me.
As Dawn already said, we’re here for you, Brian, and Jonas. And as Amy said, God’s working even this situation for His glory and your good. My love and prayers are with the three of you always!
Just wanted to let you know your family is in our thoughts and prayers. We can’t wait to see you guys next month and we are very excited for Steven to meet Jonas.
oh kathleen….i wish i had some enlightening words to share, but i don’t…
just know that you are in our thoughts and prayers…
and that of course, we love you guys so much…i hope you come visit next week:)
anything i can ever do……don’t hesitate….love love love you.
Kathleen – I am so proud of the both you. Jonas couldn’t ask for better parents to help him go through this path in his life. As I told you, my former neighbor’s 2 sons were duagnosed with Autism many years ago and one of them is a Phi Beta Kappa with a college scholarship and will be going to U of M this fall. The journey you 3 will be taking will have ups and down, but with your perseverance and detemination (which you both have), Jonas will be the one who will benefit. He’s so precious and I’m glad he’s my grandsosn.
Dear KJ, (I really like that monicer)
In 1968, when I was 19 y/o and just woken up from a coma, I was laying in a hospital bed thinking, “ok, my right arm and leg doesn’t work right now but they will very shortly”. I was thinking that thought during the 1st, 2nd, 3rd, all the way to 1978. And every month I got sooo hurt, resentful and bitter. Negative denial is such a powerful act. It was a very long time. Then, I saw the “light”. The point is that I am very proud of you for your insight, focus, strenght and compassion for Jonas. Anytime you or Brian need an ear, please do not hesitate to call. 734-718-9337. Carol and I will continually pray for Jonas, you and Brian. We love you.
Uncle Alan